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secondthoughts) wrote2023-09-20 11:41 am
secondthoughts) wrote2023-09-20 11:41 am
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HotNatureFacts Hey nature lovers! Bear with me, since this post is going to be a little off-brand for a sec. But it's important and I'd appreciate if you read it in full.
I was invited to take part in a closed beta test for CC Corp's upcoming virtual reality MMO, Fragment. I used to play games a lot as a kid in the city, so I jumped at the opportunity to brush off the rust of my gaming muscles and make some new internet friends. It was fun!
At first.
First, we heard that one of the players fell unconscious and was out for 24 HOURS after touching a bugged asset (which was later removed, but never given an explanation for!). Then, another player couldn't log out and couldn't feel their real life body afterwards. Then somehow, one player interacted with bugged items in the game that left their avatar dead in the main city, while their REAL BODY was rendered comatose for a whole WEEK. Another was sent to the hospital for real life injuries sustained in the game.
Not to mention the countless other weird things happening, like weirdly personal armor that shouldn't even be a part of the game. Or how people's personal information is being broadcasted to other players. Some of the information, extremely private. How was any of this even implemented into the game in the first place??
The company has been content to ignore us outside of in-game channels, sending us away at HQ and returning our letters. They even blame us for some of the major incidents above. Talk about gaslighting, huh?
This beta has been an absolute shitshow and the devs refuse to take any responsibility for what's been happening. I'm starting to wonder if we'll only get any answers to this reckless beta if we start making noise outside of official channels. What the hell is going on, CC Corp?
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I was invited to take part in a closed beta test for CC Corp's upcoming virtual reality MMO, Fragment. I used to play games a lot as a kid in the city, so I jumped at the opportunity to brush off the rust of my gaming muscles and make some new internet friends. It was fun!
At first.
First, we heard that one of the players fell unconscious and was out for 24 HOURS after touching a bugged asset (which was later removed, but never given an explanation for!). Then, another player couldn't log out and couldn't feel their real life body afterwards. Then somehow, one player interacted with bugged items in the game that left their avatar dead in the main city, while their REAL BODY was rendered comatose for a whole WEEK. Another was sent to the hospital for real life injuries sustained in the game.
Not to mention the countless other weird things happening, like weirdly personal armor that shouldn't even be a part of the game. Or how people's personal information is being broadcasted to other players. Some of the information, extremely private. How was any of this even implemented into the game in the first place??
The company has been content to ignore us outside of in-game channels, sending us away at HQ and returning our letters. They even blame us for some of the major incidents above. Talk about gaslighting, huh?
This beta has been an absolute shitshow and the devs refuse to take any responsibility for what's been happening. I'm starting to wonder if we'll only get any answers to this reckless beta if we start making noise outside of official channels. What the hell is going on, CC Corp?
(Add notes from Q&A later)
September 27, 2000
sometime mid-ish december
There is also the thought that there is a man, whose relationship with Owen he cannot describe so succinctly, only hours away who... isn't. He's gone. Crucified in some sick exchange, and Owen finds his thoughts drifting back to Hector - to Mehmet - when he has moments of quiet.
So once he's able to get his phone back and get service restored, he... does nothing, not for a few more days, but then he's pulling up instagram. He can see the last post Hector made, the last words anyone got from him, well over two months ago now, but he doesn't bother reading it. He just starts a DM, feeling a bit silly, but - well. Time for the entire truth to come out, apparently.
Owen and Mehmet had had more than just one chance meeting in New York, and he regrets not saying anything even if explaining it would have been mortifying. At least it would have cleared things up...]
mehmet, it's owen. i know you can't read this right now, but - surprise. you've been giving me money to see me naked this whole time, and it's part of why things were so strange from us even beyond you just forgetting we met in nyc.
i don't know if telling you about that would have made a difference. it's not like i wanted to connect every part of my life, but now i find myself thinking about what things could have been like if i had told you? maybe it's selfish and self-centered to me, but... i did like spending time with you. i did think you were a good man, even if i know there were things you were very much hiding from me and everyone else.
but how could i mind when so was i? big and small, everyone keeps secrets. i can't hold it against you and i never will, and i don't just say that because you're dead. you kept things to yourself for a reason, and it's not like knowing everything would have changed what i thought of you. i was taken in by a man who did terrible things - anything terrible you may have done would have just been familiar, i'm sure. it's also possible your secrets weren't anything heinous you may have done yourself, but like i said. don't really care what your secrets are. i still liked being around you.
i still liked you, because you didn't seem to detest me. i wish i had gotten to know you better, though i'm sure i would have just tried to push you away. i kept trying to push amon (fandaniel) away, too, because that's just... how i was like, so it just makes the regret even stranger.
did you ever notice that i stole one of the pieces from your chess set after i stayed with you? i still have it, actually. it's totally worthless, but it's something i haven't been able to part with. a silly souvenir of what i got up to while finding my way in america.
speaking of america... amon's still planning on it, and whenever he does, i'll take him up to sequoia for you. it won't be the same, but we had joked about going up there together to bother you together. we had made plans to see the trees and hassle you all day because the two of us would have been in no shape for hiking around for hours, right after amon came back from the fight with fidchell.
anyways, i know messages like this are only good for the living leaving them. i'm only satisfying my own selfish feelings, but i would rather embarrass myself yelling into a void than keep stewing and being miserable with the words i never got the chance to say.
i miss you. i wish i could have seen you again. that amon could see you again. i hope you're happy, though, wherever you are. i've never thought much about there being an after life, but i hope you're somewhere nice and peaceful.
xo, owen
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a few days later i'm sorry but
i'm not sorry
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i swear to fucking god you better be a friend or family member of his because if he didn’t ACTUALLY suffer brain death and is still actually alive but he’s just IGNORING ME even though i can SEE MY MESSAGES MARKED AS READ i might have to finish the job myself.
[he failed at being reasonable.]
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I'm still recovering
1/???
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[It’s hard to believe something he said when angry was… real.]
done
if it’s really you, then… we’ll talk more. when you feel better.
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It's me
They explain it to me but I never remember
I miss you
I'm not sexy anymore
:(
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but don't be an idiot. of course you're not sexy anymore, either. you've been atrophying for months just like me, so it's not like that matters. the both of us aren't at our best right now but that's okay.
it's okay. do you remember amon? do you... want me to tell him?
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if I'm not sexy
Is an.mon the little one
Tell him what
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besides, even if you’ve lost all your muscles, that wasn’t even really my favorite part of your body anyways. your eyes are still the same, right? i can just look at them.
yes. he went by fandaniel in the game.
do you want me to tell him you’re alive and recovering? i don’t want to just… have him miserably mourning you, but with you needing to recover…
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Oh yeah I like him too
Can you tell him
Did you find him
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i’ll tell him. i know where to find him.
make sure to try your best in recovery because you owe him a trip to see some beautiful trees.
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:)
I can't walk
I'll try
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the important part is we have the chance to do it at all:
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